Have you ever noticed the way that perfect days tend to ruin. The way that even with the sun shining and bright and that perfect amount of breeze to keep you cool it just never seems enough. One thing happens, and then another, and you're left feeling empty and alone, without any real explanation as to why.

Today was a thing of beauty, Good Friday, and good indeed it was. The sky was gorgeous and life was everywhere. I could feel God's joy in my heart and his arms wrapping around me as I thanked him for what he did for us today. Died for us. There is so much beauty and glory for God in that it should only make me happy, yet it always creeps up. Even on glorious days like today, that little voice whispering "You did that to Him you, know. Your dirty so Jesus had to go through this, because you are a bad person." And then I am crushed. Now on one hand this is completely true. I am sinful and full of bad, and because of that Christ had to die so I could be with God. There are no lies in this whisper to myself. It is what it causes me to feel that is the lie. That I am not really saved, because I am way too dirty, too bad.

"Jesus Christ I'm not scared to die, but I'm a little bit scared of what comes after, to I get the gold chariot? Do I float through the ceiling? Do I divide and pull apart? Cuz my light, is too slight, to hold back all my dark." --Brand New

There is no way that I will ever be okay or good. I allow these thoughts to poison this beautiful day. To blind me from what the real truth of this day is. That is that I will never be good enough, alone. Thank God I am not. I an not alone. I am sinful and harmful. But because of today I get to be clean. God can look at me and see Jesus' righteousness. He shields me so God can look past my stain, to my heart; which is His; and be pleased. GOD IS PLEASED BY ME! Even with my sins and my pain and my relentless ability to put things before him in my mind He still loves me and is pleased with me! We must remember this.

Many of us were taught as young Christians to feel guilt. To be shamed of the things we have done and hide from God because we are so unworthy. Really we should be running too Him, for even though we stray and wonder and sin, He waits for us with open arms again. Ready to welcome us home, to where we truly belong, connected with Him.

The one thing the devil uses the most is the loneliness we feel as humans. That is what connects as most as a race, or intense ability to feel loneliness. The devil uses this to create lies in our head. To make us feel we are really alone and that God is not sitting with us, in us, the whole time. It is easy to think God has left us, we are unworthy, we are sinners. But please remember today that even when you feel alone, God is with you. You may not be able to feel him right then, and you may not be able to understand why he would even want to be with you, but He is. Because He is Pleased by you.